#20 廿 Twenty (w/ English)
一直都覺得「廿」這個字很有意思，淺淺幾筆畫就含有二十的意涵
寫字寫了二十天，已經推展計劃的五分之一，感覺已經克服最大靜摩擦力，對於這個計畫至少有一點累積感到十分欣慰。
今天就來寫寫第二個十天的歷程。過去十天發生很多、很多事，這個計畫在生活裡扮演的角色，多數的時候像是在已經裝滿食物的盤子上多淋上一匙不是很清楚是什麼口味的醬汁。
心理上，因為這個計畫我的感受力更強烈，走在路上常常有像電影一樣的畫面：看得到對著緩慢移動發愣的小孩，眼神裡充滿「這是什麼東西？」的疑惑，以及他後方推著輪椅的父親，沒有力氣跟他解釋的疲態；我看到手扶梯被踩扁的爆米花，像是初春開放的白花，想像爆米花盒從手中撞落的那一刻，爆米花從空中慢動作掉落然後再被快轉鏡頭的腳步一一踩扁。「生活感」也許是一個可以形容這種轉變的詞彙，生活在文字裡慢了下來，至少每天又多抓住了一點什麼。
生理上最大的轉變，就是睡更少。寫字是很花費時間的，快的時候半小時就夠，但很少發生，從構思到完稿，平均可能花到一個小時左右。雖然早上比較容易寫，但我幾乎都是在睡前才坐在電腦前，一發完稿就立刻去睡覺(把自己最好的精神貢獻給工作）。高高不在家的時候，這件事還是容易一點，但高高回來之後，時間壓縮就更明顯了。可能之後得設定某個時段就是拿來寫字。
過去十天，寫字顯然不像一開始那麼有足夠的衝勁，有時候就是抓著「有發文就不錯了」的最低標準來書寫，雖然沒有違背初心，但一開始那種每天文章的完成程度至少都有某個水準，還是一件十分有成就感的事。希望接下來十天不會越走越歪。
我有一個草稿是專門紀錄所有主題靈感，但我真正從清單裡選題來寫的日子還是不多，多數的主題還是很倚賴寫字當下的心有所感，感受越強的通常成品越好。可能未來紀錄靈感得記成回答某個問題而發展的段落，而不是幾個字的主題而已。
第二十天了，還是很喜歡這個計畫，希望自己能繼續寫下去，尤其之後在旅行上可能又更難挪出時間，但我會好好努力的。雖然說這個計畫不想被讀者綁架，但按個按心讓我知道你在這裡吧！
PS. 還沒想好第二十天要買哪本書，也歡迎大家推薦！
Hundred-Day Writing Project #20: Twenty
After writing for twenty days, about a fifth of the plan has been achieved. I feel like I've overcome the greatest static friction in the project and I'm quite pleased with the progress.
Today, I'll write about the reflections of the second set of ten days. A lot has happened in the past ten days. This project's role often feels like adding an unknown sauce to a plate already fully filled with food.
Psychologically, due to this project, my sensitivity to life has increased. I often see scenes like those in movies while walking: a child staring blankly at something slowly moving in front of him, with puzzled eyes, and his father pushing a stroller behind him, too tired to explain; I see flattened popcorn on an escalator, like white flowers blooming in early spring. I imagine the moment the popcorn box falls from someone's hand, the popcorn falling in slow motion, and then being stepped on in fast-forward speed. "Sense of life" may be a term to describe this kind of change. Life has slowed down in words, at least capturing a little something more each day.
The biggest physiological change is sleeping less. Writing takes time; half an hour is enough when it's fast, but that's rare. From conception to completion, it may average about an hour. Although it's easier to write in the morning, I almost always sit down in front of the computer before bed, giving my best energy to work. When E isn't at home, this is easier, but after he is back now, the time crunch becomes more apparent. Perhaps I'll have to set aside a specific time for writing in the future.
Over the past ten days, writing clearly hasn't had the same momentum as in the beginning. Sometimes, I just aim for the minimum standard of "having something written is better than nothing." Although it doesn't deviate from the original intention, having a certain quality of completion for articles each day in the beginning was a very fulfilling thing. I hope the next ten days won't stray further.
I have a draft specifically for recording all topic inspirations, but I haven't actually selected many topics from the list. Most topics still rely heavily on my present inspiration while writing. The stronger the emotion, the better the end result usually is. Perhaps in the future, recording ideas will have to be turned into paragraphs developed from answering a certain question rather than just a few words of topic.
It's the twentieth day, and I still really adore this project. I hope I can continue writing, especially since finding time might be harder during travels, but I'll try my best. Although I don't want this project to be influenced by readers too much, but today you can perhaps click ‘Like’ below and let me know you're here too!
P.S. I still haven't decided which book to buy for the twentieth day. Recommendations are welcome.